Adam's Evangelion Fanfiction

The sun was rising over Tokyo-3. Rei Ayanami woke up and began her morning routine of getting ready for school.

"Ayanami? Can I come in?" A familiar voice inquired.

She walked towards the entrance to her apartment and slowly opened the door.

Shinji Ikari was standing at door. Rei felt the soft touch of material on her body - the blue-haired girl instantly recognised it as the towel from earlier.

"Ayanami!" The boy wrapped it around her pale body carefully, keeping his eyes on the wall next to him as he did so. "You can't just answer the door naked!"

'Naked...I'm...naked?!' Quickly facing down and scanning herself, Rei ascertained that it was indeed so. She hastily retreated to the bathroom, where Rei promptly got dressed for school.

"Is this better?"

"Are you.. feeling okay, Ayanami?"

"I have sustained no injuries recently." Looking down on herself once again, as if scanning her body for any harm, she answered.

"Ikari, why are you here?" In her usual tone of voice.

"I...um...well, you see...Misato thought it would be good if I walked you to school in the morning."

"Are those my orders?"

"Yes Ayanami."

Shinji was not sure, but he could have sworn he saw Rei give a tiny, almost unnoticeable smile.

"Hey, Ayanami, wait!"

Rei was already walking out the apartment door and down the stairs, carrying her book bag.

Shinji had to keep a slow jog to catch up, but eventually did when they reached the bottom, and Rei stopped.

"What is it Ayanami?" Shinji spoke nervously.

"It is...nothing." Rei whispered, her voice trailing as she turned to continue walking.

"Why are you...blushing, Ikari?"

"Its...just a heat stroke...it's nothing, let's continue."

Rei wanted to ask why he was lying, her mouth opened...but the words didn't come.

They walked in silence the entire way to school staring at the ground, only Shinji giving the occasional glance at Rei and finding her staring down.

They arrive at school without incident, and take their seats.

Shinji sits down the front of the class, and Rei's seat was near the back corner, against the window.

The teacher arrived, and began to call the role.

"Rei?"

"Here, sir."

Shinji blushed a little.

He knew he had feelings for Rei, but could not help but blush.

Is this what love feels like?

"Shinji?"

When could he tell Rei how he felt?

"Shinji, you dummkopf!" Yelled Asuka.

"Ah, here sir! Sorry." Said Shinji.

He turned to glare at Asuka, and caught a quick glance at Rei.

She was staring out the window, as usual.

"Hey, Shinji, stop glaring at Ayanami and pay attention, will ya!" Shouted Touji.

The whole class erupted with laughter, and caused Shinji to go bright red.

Before he turned away, he could see slight tinges of pink on Rei's cheeks, made of pale white skin, but she continued to stare outside.

Shinji was relieved when the final bell rang, and he was able to leave, but not before waiting for Rei.

Rei continued to sit and stare out the window, apparently also waiting for everyone to leave.

Shinji mustered up enough courage to approach Rei, but before he could open his mouth, Rei spoke first.

"Ikari."

"Yes Ayanami?"

"Could you...walk me home. I wish to speak with you."

"Of course Ayanami" Said a surprised Shinji.

Rei got up silently and picked up her book bag, then made her way to the door. Shinji followed, and they left the school together.

"Ayanami, what is it you wish to talk about?"

"I wish to be alone to speak with you. When we arrive at my apartment, I will explain."

They were close enough to see Rei's building now, and Rei seemed to increase pace.

After hurrying up the four flights of stairs to her apartment, Rei edged open the always unlocked door, and stepped inside.

"Please Ikari, sit." Muttered Rei, waving her hand to the bed.

"Ikari, I must talk to you about something"

"Anything Ayanami, please tell me".

"I...you...affect me differently than the others. I do not know this feeling I have..."

"Whenever I speak to you, I feel...happy. I think. I'm not sure what happy is. I get a strange feeling in my stomach whenever your around me, whenever you...smile"

"When I first met you, in Unit 01's cage, you looked...different. When the Angel broke through and NERV was shook, you came over and expressed concern for me. No-one except the Commander has ever expressed concern for me before. It felt...good.

"When we defeated the 5th Angel, you came down, and burnt your hands to get into my entry plug. Just like when the Commander got me out of my entry plug when Unit 00's activation test was a failure. Except, he did not express as much concern for me as you did. For the first time...I...smiled."

"Rei, I-"

"I am not finished yet Ikari. When you reached out and gave me your hand, the touch made me get this feeling inside. I have read that in similar cases this feeling is...love."

"I have that feeling whenever I am near you. I think...

That I love you Shinji."

"I do not want to force my feelings upon you Ikari, if you do not share them, you are free to leave".

'I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away…'

"Ayanami...I...I have always been afraid. Of everything. I have always run from everything good in my life, every opportunity. You are one of those things...but this time, I am not going to run away. I'm not going to leave you Rei. I have always been lonely, and I know that you have as well. What I'm really trying to say is..."

"I...I love you Rei."


Anno, H. (Screen writer/Director) (1995). Neon Genesis Evangelion [Television series]. In Tokyo, Japan: Gainax.